28/7/2017

it was a weird day, when i started the day off feeling so fatigue because i felt that my the tsunami phase of my period is coming. i woke up late,  just managed to change my clothes and went to class without bathing. It was Malaysian Legal System class , and i can't seem to find my notes...so i just sat there, opening my phone, browsing through Facebook's videos (using MMU's Wifi ofc) and then the time just passed by. An hour later, the class is dismissed, i actually wanted to go out with nabilah but i got caught up in a conversation with Emily that i tend to delay things with Nabilah(she is quite pissed off regarding it - and she has every right to be). Anyway, as i was talking to Emily, some of the issues that was raised is regarding how i am in a such dire need of an assistant as it is so hectic for me to be the secretary and having to juggle everything alongside trainings, social life, studies and etc. but i did tell her, that if i voice out my need the Mr President might not agree as when i voiced out my opinion regarding the recruitment of Fiona n Yong Wei n etc without prior notice, they tag me n bash me in the group. I am seriously clueless about how am i suppose to deal with him regarding this matter. things go on until Emily started to talk about how she wanted to form an all-girls team, which i am definitely excited n looking forward to..hehe. i also felt like they don't favour me that much, when i asked Emily, her response was, maybe because i am annoying because i ask to many questions (according to her) even though i felt like if i don't communicate with them, then, how will we ever get to know each other and how will we ever bond. Their mentality is totally different than mine. And i don't know how to cope or deal with that . in a sense, i felt like they are in the sky and i am in the depth of tartarus. I will never know when will we get to common grounds or even if that is possible. I can accept if people have different opinions as mine, but i will always try my best to comprehend them in their own way ( and i was hoping that people will do the same to me too), but it turns out that people are different, not just that they can't accept, they don't want to comprehend and they reject totally my opinion without even considering it for 1 second. it breaks my heart that in the first meeting, he emphasizes on teamwork n etc, but what he does is the other way around, and i ,honestly , can't comprehend that .then, the day goes on , with me and nabilah going to the Bank Rakyat to pick up our kad siswa, turns out, only her's is done, mine is due next week. After that , we went to KFC and bumped into dragonboat's sweetest couple (Emily & WeiJian), then, we went to Cimb Bank (for me to make an account - for the I-Smart V7 project. After that, we went back straight, i was watching "final Recipe" on Youtube, it is such a good movie - it made me teary. and then i fell asleep. i woke up around 8:30 ish, then, i bathe, went to wash my clothes, and then went to physical training . The funny thing was, i told abg adam (that i was having my period) and then he kept on emphasizing, that if i can't do it, don't push myself so hard. i thought it was kind of him to not pressure me that much. although in another thought, i felt pampered by him a bit. and the, after training, i watched "Stuck In Love" and it made me want to make a blog, and write. and here i am, writing what happened in my day at 4:28am. Hoping to find time to write about other stuff soon. Au revoir.